HEART.

I recently went through an old laptop to back up my files and found some interesting things. For some reason I saved various AIM conversations with various people. I had several documents of conversation from who I believe was my first "love." Actually lets clarify in my opinion what a first love was/is. I did not love him nor, nor did I even understand what love was...but he had my heart for sure. He was a complete JERK and really hurt me a lot.

So like any girl, I tried to move on. When things end badly and are not really resolved you really don't get the opportunity to whole heartedly move on. You can ignore it but seriously it just doesnt go away, there is that small little piece of that person glued to you for what feels like forever...

Until one night in college, I got a phone call. That phone call was out of the clear blue sky and a genuine attempt to give me my heart back. My poor heart that was hijacked was FINALLY back to me. The closure I didnt even know that I was waiting for and needed. I believe it was two years later or something along those lines.

I am a firm believer in having a conversation and getting closure or in most cases, taking your heart back. Sometimes it may take a while...but its worth it.

I don't hate this person and maybe I need to thank him? If he had not called me I just don't know what kind of state my heart would be in and I wouldn't have opened it up to the amazing man I currently date<3.

So my advice is to take back your heart...there is someone else out there who actually deserves it :)